So here is Vicky and I from Saturday night, OMGoodness what a night. its the 1st time i've had a friend to share clothes with and she tarted me up BIG time!
And since when do men ask 'do you wanna come home with me' before asking your name? Madness!!! *rolls eyes*
So what with that guy and stalker Owen who was Jekyll and Hyde, I'm doing REALLY well!
I've been to catch up (again) with an old friend. This old friend got me and Kev together, so it was really hard going to her house again after so long...
There is so many things I remember, laying of the sofa listening to music talking well into the early hours, laughing, being wrapped around his body whist sat on the freeze somking, drink and snogging Our 1st night together...
I wanna talk to him about these so much, just to see if he remembers, but I know I shouldn't dwell on the past, so hense why its going up here...to remember things as they were.
I promised myself not to dwel on 2008, but its hard.
I miss him so much, despite knowing this is the best thing for me.
“The secret of health for both the mind and body is not to mourn for the past, not to worry about the future, not to anticipate troubles, but to live the present moment wisely and earnestly.”
2008 has been full of adventures, good times and bad times..
I'm trying to do this in order but not sure how it will work out!
I saw the Spice Girs at the 02 in January
I spent time with good Nanny friends
My gorgeous cousin Rachel got married And after a drunken conversation I regained a relationship with my Dad.
I had to say goodbye to Sarah, who jetting to Canada. She came back in the summer for a visit but its not the same :o(
I had the worlds worse holiday in Lanzarote (or lanzagrotty!) I mean there were good times in the 2 weeks but it cost me over £1000 and I think about it and it was generally awful.
My brother Jack (10) and I spend a day in ond visiting the Tower of London and the London Eye As scary as it was, a fear overcome!
I spent some time up in Huddersfield visiting my dad, step mum and brother H (13) The then headed to Leeds to visit my Auntie Jo Jo and found my HUGE love for Jo Malone!
I wrote off my Seat Leon :o( 1st accident! and had to sit in an ambuance (1st time!)
I went on the RAGE in Southend..TWICE!
I played animal SOS
We had 2 litters of beautiful Kittens :o)
I spent more time with my family up north.
I started a veggie patch and grew oads of veg, but mainly pumpkins!
I statred and fell in love with scrapbooking!
I caught up with old friends and there babies, Caroline & Andy with AJ, Michael & Oliver Gemma & Martin with Caitlyn & Cerys Rachael & John with Charlie & bump Leanne & Harvey
I made LOADS of new nanny friends, some who have been a great suport! Vicky has been an amazing support every single day, through the ups and downs that life takes us on. I also have Sarah Jenni Emily Heather To thanks for being there for me with all lifes little (or BIG) problems!
I have found new friends in people I never thought possible Thank you Jade for listening to me in my deepest darkest moments.
I LOVE my sister Vicky...nothing more needs to be said hey hun x
I went to the NTA 2008
I took my sister to see Wicked :o) We also spent a day looking around the NHM in London
I TOTALLY fell in love with it, its an amazing show! I also saw it again in Dec with Laura for her Birthday!
My babies grew up, S turned 6 and I turned 3. S had some friends round for a roast lamb dinner and India had a HUGE Dora party with all her friends!
I have alot to be thankful for, and a lot to look bad on and feel sad. After nearly 3 years Kevin and I broke up, at the time of writing its been about a month apart and generally day to day I feel ok, but at the same time I miss him very much. I have not only lost him, I have lost the relationship with his children, they are no longer interested in me, which is heart breaking. Hense why I haven't added so much Kevin activities of 2008, not because they were bad time, but because I don't need to remember those any more. The love is still VERY much there but some things just aren't meant to be :o(
2009 will no doubt bring more good times and more bad, but whatever happens I'm going to make the most of it, make more time for friends, gym more too loose all this fat! enjoy every moment I have with the girls, after all...who knows where I might end up going!
Also I went to T4 on the Beach...
LOVED IT!!!
I found Barleylands Craft Village http://www.barleylands.co.uk/home.htm
I have well and truly got good use out of my Colchester Zoo Gold Card.
S6 learnt to ride her bike with no stablisers!
I3 started doing ballet :o) My Prima Ballerina
I saw in NYE with Heather in Shitargo's in Chelmsford! Messy, messy times hey Heather!
Why do we always let people slip away and then leave it so long to catch up? Boyfriends, work and just generally life. Over the past few weeks I have spent A LOT of time catching up with very good friends. Christmas eve was Rachael and her HUSBAND and son Charlie, we had such a good gossip about old times and times a head of us, and I really wish we hadn't lost all those years! I have also been to see Caroline, Andy, AJ16months and the Twins M&O 5months and had a wonderful day with them all, feeding, burping and bathing...I shouldn't leave that so long as the boys are so lovely and I have great fun with them! Also Leanne I went to college with and her son Harvey...who was gorgeous!
I feel very blessed I have the time now to spend with these important people in my life, lets hope the next year is full of more visits, cuddles, kisses and happy times.
HAPPY CHRISTMAS, ok a little later but I didn't want to come on yesterday and no doubt no one would have on here!
I hope everyone had a great day and got totaly spoilt. I went up to Huddersfield to spend Christmas with my dad, step mum and brother H13.
Its been a really lovely time, if not maybe a little emotional. I really missed Kev, but delt with it well.
I got a lovely necklace from my sister-a joint birthday present, loads of scrapbooking stuff which I will post up later. Gardening gloves Jo Malone perfume :o) Garden ornimant Garden secatears Scarf (hand made by my step mum)
and a few other bits I can't think of the top of my head right now!
I'm not the biggest Christmas fan, but Sunday I did my Santa bit and dropped off some presents to my friends beautiful babies.
Christmas really is about 2 things, 1) The Children and 2) Giving
The children really loved their gifts and I had such a lovely time playing with the Dora puzzle I brought Caitlyn :o)
Kids make this time of the year!
Today I have also caught up with an old schol friend that I haven't seen since leaving school oh so many years ago! She hasn't changed and her son is LOVELY, I feel truly lucky to have these people in my life!
I'm coping ok without Kev, don't get me wrong, I miss him like mad, but nothing could make me WANT to go back to that 'relationship'. The girls have decided not to have anything more to do with me, which is heartbreaking, but I guess predictable. I get moments where I feel very alone, and just want to be cuddled, and loved, but have found alot of comfort in some very good friends. I wish him all the best of luck in his life, I still care alot for him, 3 years together doesn't mean you just stop caring... Hmmmmmmmm, thoughts.......
I'm off to Huddersfield tonight, wish me luck for my drive!
This is MY song of the moment. I have always been a Snow Patrol fan, I love there Eyes Wide Open album
This song, makes me smile. It makes me think of Kev, laying there, together, like nothing else in the world will ever touch us, praying that every second will last longer. Feeling 110% safe tucked up in his arms, smelling his body, sharing body heat, bodies just fitting together perfectly. Thinking of it fills me with mixed emotions. 3 years is a long time to just stop loving someone but I KNOW we can't be together, give it another 2 weeks and I know things will be easier. At the same time I long to feel and secure and safe wrapped in his arms.
Its amazing how much stronger I feel as a person this time around. I have the gym keeping me busy, and have found friends in the most unlikely people. Yes i've had 2 men disarsters in 2 weeks but isn't that half the fun?!? I just have to count myself lucky I have the people I have!
Unfortunately due to recent circumstance, I can no longer post on my own blog without some phyco stalker taking offence and taking what is said on here to stir to RW friends.
So I am going to be giving the blogging a rest for a while and head down the gym!
Here is one of the 106 photo's from last night! I had such an amazing night, despite the funny looks and feeling a little fat in my dress! I had my hair cut early Saturday morning and hasn't told anyone so it was a bit of a surprise for the people who turned up! Of course I was Cinderella Kev-My Prince Charming Vicky - My Ugly Step sister! Love you really!) Jenni-Minnie Mouse Emily-Jessie Sue-Jack Sparrow Rebecca-Minnie Mouse Clare-Jessie Big G- Woody Vicky-Tinkerbell Sim - Captin Hook and Laura, Gary & George turned up too
I can't wait to scrap my picture and have ordered them off Photobox already...I have used them so much in the last few weeks and they are SOOOO great. Photos are great quality and soooooo quick!
The week has just flown by. Monday I was at the gym Tuesday I was at a workshop from 7.30-10, I made 4 pages and one of the other ladies there made 3 yes count them 3 lables! ha ha ha Wednesday I went swimming at the gym on my own!!! I managed 30 lengths in 30mins Friday I took India swimming at the gym for the mother and tots swim...it was so quiet so India and I swam for 45mins, I got a fair few lenghts done but not as many as I would have liked! Then I took Kev out for dinner and to see James Bond at the Cinema to cheer him up after having some bad news that he'd been made redundant again :o( Not only that but is Great Nan Rene had been admitted to hospital :o( Fingers crossed everything will work out.
Last night I went to the gym for my Health Check. Before my HC I went and swam for 30mins or so....blimy! Am I feeling tired today! lol I swim most weeks with I3 and we generally stay in the pool for 1 1/2 - 2 hours coz we have good fun, but that is NOTHING compared to 30mins of purely up and down swimming! LOL
HC went without any issuse, yes i'm obease at 5'6 and just under 16st (apprantly scales at home were out a little!)
Next tuesday I have my 1-2-1 to complete a programme of best equipment to use...how exciting!
Also I hit 'The Range' in Colchester on Friday and brought a carrier for when I go out to my workshops...tonight for example. Didn't really find too much else I fancied. Weather it was because I have too much going on I can't think past the projects i'm working on?
Saturday I ventred into Epping where a friend was holding a card sale. I picked up some really lovely cards (only spent £16!!!!)
I need to get some pictures added at some point but I have a busy week ahead. Scrapbooking, gym, Kev's, gym and Saturday is my Birthday Disney night out!!!!
Joined the gym! I actually did it! Joined....I am a member of LA Fitness!!! Whoooooooooooooooo! I also weighed myself at 16st which is just over 100lbs so fingers crossed I loose some of that!
Got my Health Check Monday, which its scary, but hopefully I won't die!
Went to 'Treats and Temptation' Creative Memories party and treated myself to... Disney Princess Additions - ready for next Saturday when I go out to Celebrat my Birthday dressed up as Disney Characters...I am of course Cinderella! Vellum, so I can print my own poem and stuff on them Memoriabilia Pocted to keep tickets and coins and things in so you can take them out. A pocket to put my NTA booklet in A nice little case for my little bits, like glue and stamps New pages and page proctector that have totally finished off my pages!
I am a HAPPY bunny!
I am now uploading 215 pictures onto Photbox ready (fingers crossed) for my workshop on Tuesday!
I came on about 30 mins ago and wrote a HUGE long rant about a particular nanny I knew... Then I realised if I did that I was just as bad as her and its all so school ground like!
So here I am, deciding I am going to send her a message myself regarding her leaving me alone and stop stabbing me in the back.
Monday, 10 November 2008
Ok so again not the best picture in the world, but best I could get today on my phone... This is one page of my 4 page LO
I've also brought some cool pumpkin stickers to go on the pages
I'm Sarah, 25 years old.
I am a Live-in Nanny for 2 beautiful children S7 and I4. I live with them during the week in Colchester, Essex and head home to Chelmsford at the weekends.
I'm heading off to Canada soon for 5weeks and have a weekend in New York. I couldn't be happier!!!
I have a beautiful ginger Kitten called O'Malley! :o)
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