The start of Canada

I'm off to Canada in...32 days for a whole 5weeks! :o)

I have ordered a red album and more pages...but here is my front page, well the start of it!

Baking cakes

India that I look after turned 4 yesterday and I was very impressed with myself for MAKING her birthday cake! :o)

Somewhere over the rainbow....

When rainbows appear the stories are told of magical lands and pots of gold...gota love it right?!

More new LOs

Working hard at the workshop Thursday

Below Zero Ice Bar LO

New LOs

Pages

I did a work shop Saturday and completed a few pages and started some more.

Snowflake

Life...

Just some pictures to share...

1) of the floods a few weeks back

2) when it was really foggy it all froze and looked so beautiful!

Feb NHH

a little late....

Cards...

NHH

Another issue of NHH and my 2 articals :o)
Not the best but looking ok :o)

Finally!!!!!

So the 1st is from the 3ft People Festival in the summer
2nd is 'My First Haircut' still to be finished with a title and embellishment
3rd is my little tinkerbelle...again not finished.

Another night out...

So here is Vicky and I from Saturday night, OMGoodness what a night.
its the 1st time i've had a friend to share clothes with and she tarted me up BIG time!



And since when do men ask 'do you wanna come home with me' before asking your name?
Madness!!! *rolls eyes*

So what with that guy and stalker Owen who was Jekyll and Hyde, I'm doing REALLY well!

Ha ha ha

Do you remember...?

I've been to catch up (again) with an old friend.
This old friend got me and Kev together, so it was really hard going to her house again after so long...

There is so many things I remember, laying of the sofa listening to music talking well into the early hours, laughing, being wrapped around his body whist sat on the freeze somking, drink and snogging
Our 1st night together...

I wanna talk to him about these so much, just to see if he remembers, but I know I shouldn't dwell on the past, so hense why its going up here...to remember things as they were.

I promised myself not to dwel on 2008, but its hard.

I miss him so much, despite knowing this is the best thing for me.

for you xxx

“The secret of health for both the mind and body is not to mourn for the past, not to worry about the future, not to anticipate troubles, but to live the present moment wisely and earnestly.”

Happy New Year

2008

2008 has been full of adventures, good times and bad times..

I'm trying to do this in order but not sure how it will work out!

I saw the Spice Girs at the 02 in January


I spent time with good Nanny friends


My gorgeous cousin Rachel got married

And after a drunken conversation I regained a relationship with my Dad.


I had to say goodbye to Sarah, who jetting to Canada.
She came back in the summer for a visit but its not the same :o(


I had the worlds worse holiday in Lanzarote (or lanzagrotty!)
I mean there were good times in the 2 weeks but it cost me over £1000 and I think about it and it was generally awful.

My brother Jack (10) and I spend a day in ond visiting the Tower of London and the London Eye

As scary as it was, a fear overcome!


I spent some time up in Huddersfield visiting my dad, step mum and brother H (13)
The then headed to Leeds to visit my Auntie Jo Jo and found my HUGE love for Jo Malone!

I wrote off my Seat Leon :o(
1st accident!

and had to sit in an ambuance (1st time!)


I went on the RAGE in Southend..TWICE!


I played animal SOS


We had 2 litters of beautiful Kittens :o)

I spent more time with my family up north.


I started a veggie patch and grew oads of veg, but mainly pumpkins!


I statred and fell in love with scrapbooking!

I caught up with old friends and there babies,
Caroline & Andy with AJ, Michael & Oliver
Gemma & Martin with Caitlyn & Cerys
Rachael & John with Charlie & bump
Leanne & Harvey




I made LOADS of new nanny friends, some who have been a great suport!

Vicky has been an amazing support every single day, through the ups and downs that life takes us on.
I also have
Sarah
Jenni
Emily
Heather
To thanks for being there for me with all lifes little (or BIG) problems!

I have found new friends in people I never thought possible
Thank you Jade for listening to me in my deepest darkest moments.

I LOVE my sister Vicky...nothing more needs to be said hey hun x

I went to the NTA 2008


I took my sister to see Wicked :o)

We also spent a day looking around the NHM in London

I TOTALLY fell in love with it, its an amazing show! I also saw it again in Dec with Laura for her Birthday!

My babies grew up, S turned 6 and I turned 3.
S had some friends round for a roast lamb dinner and India had a HUGE Dora party with all her friends!

I have alot to be thankful for, and a lot to look bad on and feel sad.
After nearly 3 years Kevin and I broke up, at the time of writing its been about a month apart and generally day to day I feel ok, but at the same time I miss him very much.
I have not only lost him, I have lost the relationship with his children, they are no longer interested in me, which is heart breaking.
Hense why I haven't added so much Kevin activities of 2008, not because they were bad time, but because I don't need to remember those any more.
The love is still VERY much there but some things just aren't meant to be :o(

2009 will no doubt bring more good times and more bad, but whatever happens I'm going to make the most of it, make more time for friends, gym more too loose all this fat! enjoy every moment I have with the girls, after all...who knows where I might end up going!

Also I went to T4 on the Beach...

LOVED IT!!!

I found Barleylands Craft Village
http://www.barleylands.co.uk/home.htm

I have well and truly got good use out of my Colchester Zoo Gold Card.

S6 learnt to ride her bike with no stablisers!

I3 started doing ballet :o) My Prima Ballerina

I saw in NYE with Heather in Shitargo's in Chelmsford! Messy, messy times hey Heather!

Catching up...

Why do we always let people slip away and then leave it so long to catch up?
Boyfriends, work and just generally life.
Over the past few weeks I have spent A LOT of time catching up with very good friends.
Christmas eve was Rachael and her HUSBAND and son Charlie, we had such a good gossip about old times and times a head of us, and I really wish we hadn't lost all those years!
I have also been to see Caroline, Andy, AJ16months and the Twins M&O 5months and had a wonderful day with them all, feeding, burping and bathing...I shouldn't leave that so long as the boys are so lovely and I have great fun with them!
Also Leanne I went to college with and her son Harvey...who was gorgeous!

I feel very blessed I have the time now to spend with these important people in my life, lets hope the next year is full of more visits, cuddles, kisses and happy times.

Awwwwwwwwwwwww

We have....

BABIES!!!

4 beautiful kittens :o)

Happy Christmas!

Hello everyone.

HAPPY CHRISTMAS, ok a little later but I didn't want to come on yesterday and no doubt no one would have on here!

I hope everyone had a great day and got totaly spoilt.
I went up to Huddersfield to spend Christmas with my dad, step mum and brother H13.

Its been a really lovely time, if not maybe a little emotional.
I really missed Kev, but delt with it well.

I got a lovely necklace from my sister-a joint birthday present, loads of scrapbooking stuff which I will post up later.
Gardening gloves
Jo Malone perfume :o)
Garden ornimant
Garden secatears
Scarf (hand made by my step mum)

and a few other bits I can't think of the top of my head right now!

Stuff...

I'm not the biggest Christmas fan, but Sunday I did my Santa bit and dropped off some presents to my friends beautiful babies.

Christmas really is about 2 things,
1) The Children
and
2) Giving

The children really loved their gifts and I had such a lovely time playing with the Dora puzzle I brought Caitlyn :o)

Kids make this time of the year!

Today I have also caught up with an old schol friend that I haven't seen since leaving school oh so many years ago!
She hasn't changed and her son is LOVELY, I feel truly lucky to have these people in my life!

I'm coping ok without Kev, don't get me wrong, I miss him like mad, but nothing could make me WANT to go back to that 'relationship'. The girls have decided not to have anything more to do with me, which is heartbreaking, but I guess predictable.
I get moments where I feel very alone, and just want to be cuddled, and loved, but have found alot of comfort in some very good friends.
I wish him all the best of luck in his life, I still care alot for him, 3 years together doesn't mean you just stop caring...
Hmmmmmmmm, thoughts.......

I'm off to Huddersfield tonight, wish me luck for my drive!

Snow Patrol

This is MY song of the moment.
I have always been a Snow Patrol fan, I love there Eyes Wide Open album

This song, makes me smile.
It makes me think of Kev, laying there, together, like nothing else in the world will ever touch us, praying that every second will last longer. Feeling 110% safe tucked up in his arms, smelling his body, sharing body heat, bodies just fitting together perfectly.
Thinking of it fills me with mixed emotions. 3 years is a long time to just stop loving someone but I KNOW we can't be together, give it another 2 weeks and I know things will be easier. At the same time I long to feel and secure and safe wrapped in his arms.

Its amazing how much stronger I feel as a person this time around.
I have the gym keeping me busy, and have found friends in the most unlikely people.
Yes i've had 2 men disarsters in 2 weeks but isn't that half the fun?!?
I just have to count myself lucky I have the people I have!

MIA

Unfortunately due to recent circumstance, I can no longer post on my own blog without some phyco stalker taking offence and taking what is said on here to stir to RW friends.

So I am going to be giving the blogging a rest for a while and head down the gym!